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I’ve just sent my husband to the store to pick up something to make for dinner. We’re having major financial problems. He wasn’t thrilled to be having to go to the store with only $10 to spend. I hate when he acts out his displeasure because he can be very nasty without saying much. I don’t like it when he shows that  side of himself. I guess he’s entitled to get pissed off sometimes but when he gets pissed off he gets really ugly. Maybe it’s that I need to learn not to take his stuff personally. I understand why he was pissed off. He was sleeping and I woke him up to send him to the store to buy $10 worth of groceries; but still, it’s so much nicer when he makes it seem like he doesn’t mind going on these errands. Maybe I seem to take advantage or something. I don’t think I do but who knows? I’m always aware of how much he does for us, how hard he works for us, how patient he is with me while I struggle to make an income working from home. I know it’s tough on him because he’s on the go every day of week and there never seems to be any reward for him, not even a little sex. It’s not fair really. I know that. I tried to tell him that I was grateful for the effort he makes but I don’t know if I got that across or if I just came off sounding like I want him to be in a good mood so I don’t have to deal with his dark side. Hopefully we’ll both be able to hold ourselves in check long enough to still be together when things turn around for one or the other of us financially. I think we deserve a chance to share in a life without financial worries even for a little while.

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